Excruciating Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts suggest bizarre treatments for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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